I am shy, not arrogant
I shy away from the sword because I am scared
Scared what people will think of me
What they will think if they see my true self
Because my true self just wants to be loved and accepted
But I put up a smoke screen so no one can
Songs run in my head, songs I will never sing out loud
I try to act cool, when I am really freaking out
I am too afraid to let the words flow onto the page
I hid what I do from the people surrounding me
Tell myself “it’s not lying, it’s only telling part of the truth
As everybody talks, I listen, searching for a way in
To find a way to relate to what they are saying
Just something to make my presence known
I feel ignored by my peers
They have created a family among themselves, one they don’t want me apart of
I do not think I am better than them, really I feel I will never measure up
Like I don’t belong, like it’s all too good for me
As if wanting to fit in was some kind of joke
Most of all, I feel horribly misunderstud
And like my existence is wasteful to the word
Because I am shy, not arrogant
I hope you enjoyed my first ever poem. I mean I have written it for school lots of times, but first poem I have written for fun. My main inspiration for this poem was earlier the day I wrote it, I found a random interview on YouTube for some Netflix, T.V show actors. In the interview, the actors talked about their first impressions of one another, and they all agreed that they thought one of the actors was going to be very arrogant. All they had seen of him was what he posted on his Instagram, and it did not look humble per say. As soon as he arrived on set, he did not really talk to people, which only encouraged everyone’s opinion. Turns out, he was just really shy. I thought that maybe the reason my classmates did not like me was because they thought I was too good for them. There first impression of me was that I just came from public school (which is considered at this school, “for the normal kids”) and then the first test we took, I got a better score then all of them. So ya. I really am not trying to brag or anything, but it did happen and I think it greatly influenced my classmates opinions of me. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed my poem and I can’t wait to write more (if I can find time, cause I got a lot of homework). 🙂